Today, 19 Jan’09, exactly last month I came back from Japan, excited, full of hope. I thought everything will be great. I will start my career as a designer, not clothes, but chips. I was hopeful, till the day I came to the office to sign the contract and the manager told me (us) that it was an impossible thing due to the current and going financial crisis. I was a little shattered, not so much for the job, but from the way they treated me (us). It was so easy to tell YES yesterday, last week, last month, last 3 months and say NO today. Not taking into account that they deal with people with feeling and emotion. I was pretty upset, again not so much for the job if I need to emphasis, but for being lied to. I know they didn’t mean it that way, nobody thinks they did, but they did. There goes my valuable training in Japan. Not a total waste though, I picked up Japanese, I built new relationships and I built myself. I identified my strength and weakness, I am really happy the way I am. To find myself was the greatest thing during my 15 month in Japan.
Back to the job, the truth is somewhat I am pretty happy that I am not employed. It released me from the compulsory bond and somehow I am no longer tied to be an engineer. I was worried though, what I am going to do and how I am going to account to my parents. There was disappointment and fear, but in general I took it very positively. Somehow I know this is not my path.
So, after that, I went home for christmas and new year. I met 2 cute nephews of mine and I was really happy to see them. I miss them. Huaa… Just to make the story short, my siblings are doing great, my parents are well too. Everyone is very happy. The only thing was, they were worried about me. Yeah, who wouldn’t? Knowing my age, my career… so… I was a little broken with what happened. I know they love me, but there are things that they said they hurt me. Of course I could not tell them. Anyway, I would not take anyting too hard.
So, in the beginning of the year, I am back in singapore. I was clueless. I do have some ideas, but not sure how to implement them. I did contact people and asked them for help or advice. It happened that I met a long time friend who told me to join her as financial consultant first. Well, I will not elaborate about her. Anyway, I am taking her advice and I registered for the exam.
Today, I went for the first exam, on the capital market and insurance basic rules. Thank God I passed. I was worried because not ample time to study and revised. This thursday will be another test. Wish me all the best. 
That is all for now
